OscarTheCamel

skulls aint strong enough

well on friday night while helping my sister load a moving van so she could move a metal bar came lose at the back of the van and as it proceded to fall all i heard was air being sucked in thru their teeth and then it all sorta flashed for a second along with a loud crunch as the big metal bar landed on my head.

im an idiot i didnt bloody stop or relax i just wanted it to finish so i kept on lifting heavy boxes n stuff, bout an hour later i could hardly stand so we left paula took a car incase i got worse cause the poxy moving van was rubbish, got to aberdeen and i went to the hospital and the kept me there till about 12 just doing random tests they said i was fine and said i could go home but i wasnt allowed to sleep... i thought they would have kept me in but aprently not,

the next morning we had to call the doc out cause blah and he pipes up it's looking more and more like a fractured skull... to hospital again, where i was checked by an idiot nurse who was on the phone to a NHS helpline thingy to find out what she needed to look for for this type of head injury... sent away told to goto hospital in Edinburgh.

get back here to the flat in edinburgh everyone helps me out etc, back to the hospital again yesterday and they assure me my skull IS cracked but im gonna be fine and baiscly send me on my way again

this is gettin stupid im now in more pain than when i started i can hardly sleep cause everytime i roll over or something it hurts so much

im so tired and sore and i just wanna sleep and it's not happening.

It is in change that we find purpose.

frustration

im writing this on here so i can look back at it in a week and go omg you fuggin freak whats your problem.

im so pissed off with people in general right now, ignorance, bastardry, arogance, useing people all of it.

i left liverpool yesterday morning after a big hug from a very good friend, and i sat on the crowded bus to head home, bastard driver from hell whinging at old people cause they were slow walking up the isle, muh that part of the journey was uneventful i suppose.

i got to Glasgow early so tried to get an earlier bus home NO GO! so i had to wait 3 and a bit hours, i bumped into someone i hadnt seen in 3-4 years and we spoke, she reminded me of some of our mutual friends and some other stuff in the past and on the whole it was depressing!

so anyways she buggerd off and i went for my bus i got on nice and empty spacious LOADSSSS of seats so i was upstairs on the bus and sitting at the back not on the very back seat but just infront of it, bus leaves first stop was in Perth where the bastard family from hell decided they wanted to sit around me 8 of them in total, 4 adults 4 kids.

the 4 kids decided to sit behind me and proceed to fight over who has rights to put their feet on the back of my chair so as 3 of them are kicking into the back of my seat im sittin there trying to sleep to no joy.

anyways i get back to aberdeen head home bout 10.30pm i get home or something daft like that, i come upstairs open outlook to collect the mail while i been gone for 4 days.

879 e-mails, only 130 of them personal, and not a single one to ask how im doing or anything, it's 130 complaints and most of em are complaints about free things i host something happned annd their free site died for 10 minutes so i get called all the bastards. then check IRC and much n such the same thing complaints when i did nothing wrong there was nothing wrong and yet people feel the need to bitch and whine about it.

right now im bearing my soul to someone i seem to do it alot and i hope they know what they mean to me, and im glad for them ever listening to me.

i guess im done ranting, im gonna look back on this in a week and call myself pathetic, life goes on. slowly

in the end, it doesnt matter what we do, all that matters is we lead a worthwhile happy to ourselves life.